Sunday, December 29

To my friends...

If we were sitting at my sticky dining room table, I'd clear you a spot, pour you a cup of coffee and share a little piece of my heart...

*I feel like my kids are at a hilarious age...it's just not always hilarious to be their mom 
*I wish I could laugh more often
*having two 2 yr olds is kicking my butt...literally some days I wonder if I will survive the day
*I love waking up to a clean house, but most times I just don't have the energy to clean it after the  kids go to bed and it's just plain depressing when it gets messy again so fast
*sometimes I want to hire our babysitter just because she leaves the house sparkling clean when she leaves :)
*most often my grand plans end up with someone in tears- and often it's me
*I try not to make too many plans
*I love playing and being outside...it just often doesn't feel worth the work
*I'm feeling kinda lonely...the kiddos have been sick, we've been busy and I am missing my friends
*I'm feeling kinda lonely for God...the kiddos haven't been sleeping well at night, they haven't been sleeping well at naptime and that equals not much quiet alone time for mommy and her Bible
*I often find myself at the end of my rope, with nothing left to give...that's often at 9 in the morning
*I feel like a failure as a mom
*I haven't cooked a "real" meal in weeks...possibly close to a month- I think even the kids are getting sick of frozen pizza, mac 'n cheese, hotdogs and pancakes for supper
*Korey's been working so much that I almost cried tears of joy when he said no to work to go grocery shopping with me last night
*my husband is pretty amazing...who gives up work to go grocery shopping with your wife??!!
*I haven't been caught up on the laundry in years, but I did finally get some towels and washclothes washed before we ran out about a month ago...since then we have run out a few times!
*my toilets desperately need cleaning...every single day
*I'm so excited to get a fireplace, but the thought of one more thing I need to "tend" to during the day seems overwhelming
*there's nothing that makes me feel less equipped than parenting...
*there's nothing I want to do better than be a mommy
*I feel like I've given up so much...but I still find myself irritated about small, seemingly insignificant things
*for 5 minutes my life feels so overwhelming and I just wanna sit down and cry...5 minutes later its so different...I wish I could remember that better in the rough times.
*I scrubbed the floor 2 days ago...since then we've spilled milk, coffee and juice. squished playdoh onto it and eaten numerous snacks...it needs it again already! 
*I can't seem to keep my kids noses wiped...they're always walking around with snotty faces and sticky faces
*I can't tell Maysen and Maelle apart when they are wearing the same clothes and both have their hair down...maybe that's why they've been taking their ponytails out every chance they get- they like messing with me
*sometimes getting my kids to help around the house and do chores doesn't seem worth the work...other times it seems like an awesome help
*Jackson finally learned to put his jacket and boots on himself...that feels like an amazing accomplishment
*my twins make me laugh so hard. they take all the fun parts of 2 year olds and double them
*Hailey is struggling with her hearing...we have no idea what is causing all the fluid on her ears and making it hard for her to hear, but it is driving all of us nuts! I feel like I'm constantly yelling things at her :( (She's only struggling with the "soft tones", so she can hear loud noises and little kid voices)
*I took my christmas tree down on the 26th...I couldn't wait to be done with it and all the needles and the twins continually playing with it! 
*today I struggled to get my twins to stay in their bed for almost 2 hours at naptime...that depresses me, because I really thought we were done with that
*I'm leading a women's study on a book called "Give Them Grace"...I feel like the least equipped person to lead a bible study
*Jack has been begging for a little brother...we do feel kinda bad that he's the only boy- surrounded by girls
*Ephesians 4:29 is my prayer for me and the kiddos this year "let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear" 
*I heard this said about that verse on a program on the radio- it's like giving them a silver present with a beautiful bow each time you talk...I was sadly convicted that my words aren't always beautiful gifts to the hearer (and wish I'd had time to listen to the whole thing, but got interrupted, so that was all I heard)

Friday, December 27

Tea party time!

We had a little tea party today and the kiddos were so cute that I just had to take some pictures! Maelle was adorable! 
It was definitely a nice little way to relax after a few days of running and no naps and cranky kids! In Hailey's words "this is the best tea party ever" :) (it was pretty much the first tea party we've ever had, but I'll take "best") :) 

Wednesday, December 25

Merry Christmas!

We had some of the most fun moments at Christmas this year!! 
(and some of the not so best leading up to it...)
Captain America and his 3 sisters went shopping with me to pick out presents...in my mind it would have been fun and exciting- a sweet time where they chose good presents for the people in their lives...turns out that it wasn't actually that fun....the day ended in tears for mommy and 3 of the 4 kiddos....but, we did get some presents :) 
The rest of Christmas was much more delightful and sweet! 
Christmas Eve at Grandma and Grandpa K's
We had our first Christmas morning at home this morning and it was so much fun to put all the presents under our tree, fill the stockings, wait excitedly for our kiddos to wake up and drink coffee in our pj's while they opened presents!
Hailey was the first one up- she was so excited and could barely wait for the rest of the kiddos to wake up- she had seen that the biggest present was hers and just couldn't wait to see what it was! 
 Macy and Elli were so funny opening their presents- Macy was so careful and slow at opening her gifts and after she opened one she just sat and played with it and basically left the other ones for her sister to open. Elli on the other hand ripped into present after present, discarding them as she went.  
 we had some friends join us for breakfast and we all had a great time! we laughed a lot, we played a lot and we were really loud- the kids put on a screaming show on the platform that Korey built for our new fireplace :) 
in the midst of all the girlyness going on in this house Jack got some truly "manly" things for Christmas- a hulk mask and smashing hands and his very own shaving kit :) He was fairly cute trying out both of them!
I hope that your Christmas was as wonderful and relaxing as ours was today!